Another ordeal....

I was unable to update of wats happening yesterday bcoz i was sooooo tired n sleeeeepy. This was wat happened...

Right after werk, i waited mama n rama @ sgh blk 3 for mama PET(pre admission test). After registration, i followed mama 2 every test & xray she needed to go. Finally after 2hrs plus of walking around the hospital, we waited to see the Anaesthetist.
Again need to wait for Gods know when. And finally is mama turn. The doctor kept on asking mama if she has heart prob. My heart doesn't feel right. I know coz wen the doctor in my ward ask the same question over n over again,that means something not right.
So after hearing her heart MANY MANY times, he finally said the op must be postponed. We were quite shocked. He explained that my mum needed to see cardio doctors ASAP. Most probably Heart Murmur. I know its not that dangerous but the doctor said chances of that mama having heart failure/attack is higher during the operation table. Mama was so sad that she cried. I hate seeing her cry like that. It makes me wanna cry too. But i have to be strong for her coz i know she has high hopes on me getting thru these ordeal.
Ya Allah, y must mama go thru this???
Well i don't know wat came thru my mind. The first thing i reach home, i called my BF. I cried my hearts out. i keep on telling him dat i'm scared i'm not strong enough for all this. he came an idea of asking his mum to come over n have a talk with mama. I find it sweet of him but i not sure mama agreed or not. Well we see how.

That was what happened yesterday........

Ladies day out

Yesterday, mama eda, nurul, bibik manja, mama & me had a whole day outing/ shopping @ JB. Well these pics says it all.....



me & bibik manja




mama hates wen i force her to take pic but will ALWAYS end up posing! haha!




me trying my new hp on my cuzzin... cute?




see how these mother n daughter eats???

56th month....

He called few nytes ago. Talked for almost 4hrs. We pour EVERYTHING thats in our heart.

Anger, Disappointment, Sadness, Depressed, Worried.
Then,
Love, Happiness, Hopes, Dream, Gratitude.
We cry & we laugh. We scold each other n we joke.

And today...
HAPPY 56th MONTHS ANNIVERSARY, AYANG....

Is it the END?

Its the last blow for him.

Dun tink he can take it nmore.

Silence for 2days oredi.

By sat, i tink, its OFFICIAL.........................

Depress? Worried?

I don't noe y i feel depress lately. I get angry & agitated VERY easily. My bf said maybe its due to me getting too worried with my mum operation next mth. Maybe yes. He's correct.

Whats happening to me?

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY, SAYANG...

New Hp!!!

Yesterday i bought a new hp. Sumsung F480. Really cool, small hp. It come with free hp cover. I choose the limited edition colour OLYMPIC GOLD! My1st tym trying outsumsung hp.
ok ok, its actually 'free' hp. i received a $300 voucher frommy mobile company n yesterday was the last day to get the hp. Why the last min? Coz it took me the WHOLE WEEK to choose a hp!!! hahaha!
Nway last nytmy bf suddenly talk bout buying a house. scriest part is, he wanna start looking from next year onwards!! sound fun but dunno i juz feel scared. Justwait n c. Time past SUPER fast. Dat scare me

Nenekku sayang...

Just went visiting nenek house. mama, nurul, mama eda, ayah zie were there. Rama came later. Nenek cooked a wonderful meal for us. Asam rebus, kacang panjang goreng, paru goreng (bought by me), telur goreng kicap, ikan assin & UDANG BESAR SAMBAL PETAI (but i ate w/o the petai of course). Fuyoh!!!!!! Power man my nenek cooking. No one can ever replace her cooking...

One of my cousin story came up. She's nt happy coz we didn't INVITE her to the recent picnic. Y must we do dat? I feel so angry with her. She never look for my mum wholook after n care for her needs since young. She ever say she feel greatful but does she ever show her greatfulness. What i think she need to change her attitude. Yes,its ok to be vocal. But must always think of others feelings too.

While we were chatting, mak long came. Long time we didnt see her or pak long. Or nathra. Funny y must she doesn't one to be close to any one of her cousin. Well just let it be. She getting married aniway. Hope it won't get any worse which i think it will. hahah...

Date with mummy love

Yesterday i went 4 my TCU. Alhamdullilah, the doc told me my lump is remarkably subsiding. n my "sickness" is improving though he's not satisfied dat much. So he cut down 1meds n 1 more in 2 weeks time.So happy!!!
Then after mama finished work i 'drag' her 2 TM to watch THE WEDDING GAME. pity mama coz she was freaking cold. So before the movie start,we bought a sweater lyk (which i duno hw 2 spell!!) which helps her alot!
Overall i feel happy. I feel HAPPY wen the people i love feel happy..

And today, i wasn't focus at all at work. thinking too much of my dearest problem. I just which i could do something to lessen his BIG burden...
Patience dear. Patience...

Teddy Bear!!!

Juz met my Dearest. After fetching me from my home, we straight went to shaw brothers where the Safra is. Tot going 4 a movie, but its actually showing SOOOOO many Hindi movies! hahahaha...... No wonder theres so many indians people around. So end up we watch Underworld:Rise of the lyncans @Shaw Bugis.
The whole day was felt with laughter & stupid jokes. Enjoyed every min of it.
Thanks sayang. Thanks 4 making me happy n understanding every step of my life..