nothing much for last week. work was a breeze. few admission n cases to sent. maybe due to 7th ghosts mth so chinese ppl believe hospitals are 'jinx' place to be...

last fri me, huda n sya celebrated besties birthday. small one. bought for her clutches. its a beauty. i kinda like it myself. then off to Ramen Ten to break our fast. sya 'bf' came for awhile to break fast with us. then he 'secretly' blanja us. haha! glad she had a good time...

me n azhar like having difficulty communicating nowadays. is so damn hard to talk to him for at least 5mins. the longest conversation? 3mins, i think? i m just so, arrgghh!!! i cnt even ask him a question n the next tink he be angry like i ask him stupid question. for now i cnt even mit him coz he practically be @ his mum place in jb EVERY weekend. how come he can do it last year not this year? nevermind,i act as single till we meet.

coz thats how i felt everyday, my dear..... :(

2nd day of fasting. time flies.

last wed (29/8/09) my grandaunt(nek ngah) passed away. i do feel sad. cried abit when her kids n grandkids cried non stop. felt proud of mama coz she held to clean the body wen the rest feel so down to do anything. looking at her for the last time make me recalled my 2 late grandfathers.

1. Atok Amat (mama side) who passed away in 2005, 5days before Aidilfitri. remembered how i cant controlmy tears. so sad. all crying. my heart breakseeing his mother kissing his forehead n not quite sure wats happening due to dementia. n my grandma who lost a husband for 2nd time(he's my stepgranddad. but we see him as our own granddad).

2. Atok Uban (rama dad). He passed away when i was 14yrs old, in 1997. till this very day, the thought of him make me wanna cry n at times cry! n till now i miss him terribly. i wish he still around to see me n my bro be nurse/policeman. a job that all his life know that, thats our ambition. i strongly believe that he be so proud of both of us. I MISS YOU ATOK UBAN... :'''(

Semoga Allah mencucuri roh ATOK UBAN, ATOK AMAT & NEK NGAH... Amin...

Almost a month of not Blogging. LAZY is my ultimate reason. and this one month theres so many ups n down. hmmmmmm.... where do i start?

but the best is celebration of my bdae. First besties, huda n sya celebrate it with 26pressie with a fireworks as my additional pressie(was a preshow of NDP)


me with the girls



my fav among all 26...


like this the best!


then small celebration by Ayang. nothing special. lunch, first time train ride with me, window shoppin, gifs n dinner. i love it when we both have simplicity in our relationship.


first trip together....



given byhimm


then 8August had BBQ with my colleague. just for fun. n again surprise cake from them..

Fasting will be starting this sat onwards. really looking forward. SERIOUSLY!